All is quiet on new year's day

Happy new year one and all!!!

It's been a while. I know. My nose has been so buried in the books and I really haven't felt inspired to write. I've sat down on a number of occasions with my head swimming with thoughts...but the moment the computer screen blinks before me, the words just don't flow.

I worked my tail off in school this semester....and got all As to show for it. It has always been important to me to do well in school, but I've never enjoyed learning as much as I have over these past 4 months. I start the nursing curriculum in a few weeks and I'm so excited to delve into the material.

I started the new year unlike previous years. I made a last minute decision to stay at home. I had 2 very lovely parties to attend, but at about 6pm I decided that I just wanted to stay home, cuddled on the couch, watching South Park and other assorted TV marathons. I wasn't feeling sad, which sadly, I have been feeling quite a bit of late. I just wanted to treat last night as if it were any other night. I smoked some good herb, ordered in chinese, and gorged myself with at home comfort.

The irony of last night is that I have been suffering from a serious case of the lonelies yet I made a choice to be alone. Funnily enough, I didn't feel lonely.

Resolutions this year are to eat better and get some more exercise. These are 2 areas where I've been deficient and I am feeling it. People say I look great, and I don't doubt that...but I'm not feeling my best. I have to remember that I'm not 21 anymore and with a family history laden with heart disease and early death, I better take good care of me.

I haven't had sex since September 28...the night of my band's debut performance, so, methinks it's time for me to get some. I'm sure how I've felt about myself physically has kept me from pursuing sexual endeavors.

That's not to say I haven't been taking care of me in that department. I've been awfully intimate with my orchid g vibe. During the mid-afternoon yesterday, I pulled up some old photos of an ex-lover and brought myself to the depths of pleasure with a full body orgasm. Oh, how I love to feel the pulses throughout my body as all of my muscles and sphincters contract and relax.

I going to a dinner tonight with several girlfriends. 1 is in a 3 year relationship with her boyfriend, also a good friend of mine. She's ambivalent about the relationship and he disregards his own needs and allows her to walk all over him. The other 2 women are in fairly new relationships but they are desperate to be married and I'm sure the conversation throughout the evening will be about that. Barf. I mean, don't get me wrong, I want to find my life partner, but my life does not get so wrapped up in that notion nor does it consume my identity.

My band has emerged from hiatus and we have a gig this month. If you are interested in checking us out, send me an email and I would be happy to tell you where we're playing. I've also been invited to sing lead vocals for a Neil Young tribute band. Not sure how much time I have for it but it could be fun.

Well, these are just some random musings. I do want to write more and you may see more of these types of posts as I get my groove back.

Best wishes to all for a happy and peaceful new year!

Hugs and kisses, Hot Lips xo